Everything that hinders us in the race of life must be cast aside.
Hebrews 12:1 New International Version (NIV) Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,
Here is The Passion Translation of the same verse: As for us, we have all of these great witnesses who encircle us like clouds. So we must let go of every wound that has pierced us and the sin we so easily fall into. Then we will be able to run life’s marathon race with passion and determination, for the path has been already marked out before us.
“Everything that hinders us” is all inclusive.
But I like this Passion Translation for another insight. “So we must let go of every wound that has pierced us.“
Well– hold up! That hits really close to home today! As you know I am an alcoholic who doesn’t drink; yet, I still get triggered and have strong obsessions at times. These urges come for various reasons. One reason is when I get put down, yelled at, and demeaned.
This morning, and yesterday, I unfortunately had conversations with someone close to me that were VERY unpleasant. I got angry, indignant, and anxious. Those old feeling to shut down and numb out came rushing in.
But to be a healthy Christian, a healthy person, I have to breathe and let it go.
What dawned on me when I read this second version is that all my emotional baggage must go (the stuff from today and the stuff from the past). I must let it go and put it behind me.(Every wound)
Hanging onto past hurts hinders me as much as the sin that entangles me, trips me up. Not only does sin cloud the way I look at life but obviously so does my emotionally wounded outlook.
How can I run this race of life and faith “with passion and determination” if I am weighted down by ANYTHING in the past. I must let it go.
Paul says in:
Philippians 3:12-14 The Passion Translation (TPT)
12 I admit that I haven’t yet acquired the absolute fullness that I’m pursuing, but I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover. 13 I don’t depend on my own strength to accomplish this; however I do have one compelling focus: I forget ALL of the past as I fasten my heart to the future instead. 14 I run straight for the divine invitation of reaching the heavenly goal and gaining the victory-prize through the anointing of Jesus.
For some people that means: to stop trying to “understand the past” and just let it go finally!
For others it means: get with someone who can help you come to a place where you can let it go.
Some wounds run deep. There are things that I can state to my therapist or pastor right off the top of my head. Things that STILL bother me after decades. It is past time to LET IT GO! But alas, that is why I talk with people who can help me because for some reason I am still hanging on to the memories. And this is weighing me down with undue weight and burden. It is preventing me from running…let alone running with passion and determination.
I want passion. I want determination. I want to finish the race set before me– the race that is a marathon- not a sprint. For a sprint, I need only push through for a brief time. I can do that with the added weight of wounds. Push and be done. But a marathon is a long commitment. It takes endurance. To keep endurance up I need to dump all extra baggage.
Lots of people want passion and determination. Some are people just like me who have a thing or two still hanging around long past their time to be gone.
So while I continue to confess and work on not falling into sin, I am going to take a serious look at EVERYTHING that I need to let go of…all the emotional stuff: mistakes, hurtful words, unforgiveness, bad choices, regret, remorse, grief, depression, anger, sadness, hopelessness, helplessness and on it could go. As I look with the help of the Holy Spirit, who knows what I will find lingering around. And by that same help– who knows how quickly I can let it go and pick up the race again with renewed passion and determination (with a free spirit).
Until Next Time~ Blessings, Kate